April 18, 2007

  • Selfishness in the Face of Tragedy

    It is almost appalling to me the number of Koreans who are so worried that the tragedy at Virginia Tech is somehow going to affect them.  While racism is real and the unfair perceptions of others toward us is real, the tragedy is also real.  To boil it down to "how will this affct me" cheapens it.  I believe that one of the reasons that mainline Americans don't "trust" us is because we have this ability to become incredibly selfish and self absorbed.

    After the September 11 attacks, I remember sitting at a cafe in Fort Lee, NJ and hearing two older Korean gentlemen talking about the affects of the terrorist attacks.  They started dwelling on the fact that they could not go into Manhattan and open up their businesses.  They were complaining about all the money they were losing.  I understand that money and livelihood is important, but when our view is so myopic that we cannot suffer and mourn with our own countrymen, then we deserve exactly what we are going to get.

    It's time to forget for a few days that the tragedy at Virginia Tech will affect us in ways that it will not affect our white, black, latino neighbors.  It's time to see the suffering of others as real.  If we cheapen it by dwelling upon how it will affect us and not seeing the real tragedy of the murders committed, then we are inviting even more racism and bigotry.  Racism is real and we do need to fight it but there is a time and a place to fight it correctly and a way to become self absorbed and selfish.  Quite frankly, we Koreans are very good at the latter and that is why we don't have much success at the former.  I also think that the more self absorbed we get, we give creedence to those that accuse us of "not really being American".

Comments (7)

  • Joe, I strongly disagree with you.  I don't see anything wrong with pointing out that the media coverage of the killer at Virginia Tech has repeatedly focused on the fact that he was a legal resident alien from Korea as if that had anything to do with the fact that he was a crazed killer.  I feel that if Koreans don't point this out then no one else will.  There's nothing selfish about fearing for your safety.  It's called self-preservation and not selfishness.  Besides, I am sick and tired of the so-called model minority stereotype that has been associated with Asian-Americans.  Besides, America is all about indivualism.  It's probably the most individualistic country in the world.  Joe, you have to fight for your right to be treated equally in this country.  Otherwise, somebody else will walk all over you.  So, what you refer to as being self-absorbed and selfish is actually practicing one's right as an American citizen.  And what can be more "American" than that? 

  • hey pastor joe, thanks for your post. However I feel moved to respond to your thoughts. In the MIDST of the VT tragedy, i think that as leaders of the korean-american community, we must address the unexplainable feelings of guilt and fear that are massing in the minds of our youths and community members. Just five minutes ago, CNN just showed a clip of a korean-American man apologizing on the behalf of the Korean people. Why did he feel responsible to do that?

    Sadly, there are those that will allow their selfishness to consume them, but i truly believe that there are people out there who are truly mourning, standing in their cultural space as a Korean-American, Korean national-resident alien, numb and unable to mourn in the same way as the rest of the country. Wondering why they can't do so.

    I know that I have closed the comments feature on my xanga, so if you have thoughts to share, please email me at KHL211@gmail.com

  • First of all, I want to thank you both for your comments.  I guess what I was pointing to was not the fact that we should not address injustice but I was pointing out the selfishness in reacting only when our own interests are at stake and nothing else.  Bob, for instance, I agree that racism is a great evil.  I fully agree that we should address it, but where is the outcry from the Korean community when a black man's picture is posted as the rapist?  Where is the indignity on our part when it is a Vietnamese person who is being picked on by the media, or a Latino?  I am not saying that decrying racism is wrong but I think it is a little self-serving to only point out the instances when it is Koreans being victimized.

    Secondly, are you sure that his Koreanness had nothing to do with this?  If you have read the news stories, it points out that his sister went to Princeton University and he was a student at VT.  Now there is nothing wrong with that, but every Korean kid knows that there is a certain stigma of not going to an Ivy league school, especially if one of your sibblings does.  Secondly, his parents NEVER visitied him at school even when they lived in a neighboring community.  These traits are all a common theme of the Korean immigrant experience.  His anger that is evident in his plays also show something that is all too common in Koreans.  While his mental disturbances may have caused him to act, I am not so sure that his Koreanness did not have something to do with his anger.

    Now granted that the media does nothing to point this out but what I am saying is that as Korean Americans, perhaps the issue we need to address is not the media's portrayal of this kid, but maybe what might have contributed to his depression and anger.  We all know that the Korean American upbringing does little to harbor healthy individuals.  Perhaps our anger is better suited toward the shame culture and oppression that comes not from the mainstream media but from our own upbringing and culture.

    And Kat, I appreciate your comments also.  I agree that we need to address the feelings of guilt and anger that are oppressing us as a culture.  However, once again, maybe a part of the guilt or all of it has to do not with the media's constant and irritating reference to the kid's nationality but to our own shame culture and guilt culture.  We've been told from our childhood that when we do something bad, we make all Koreans look bad.  As ludricrist as that is, we started believing in that and as such, we've become a victim to the lies our culture sells to us.  I don't know if, for instance, my black friends were embarrased when a gang killer is described as black or my latino friends are described as Mexican.  Part of this is they are not as confucian as we are.  Maybe that is the source of our problems and not so much the mainstream media.

    In closing, I just want to say, I don't think the media is innocent and yes, they are stupid to continue pointing out he is Korean.  But perhaps, and this is my point, that is not our biggest problem.  I think a larger problem is the evil that we inflect upon ourselves thorugh our shame based culture and our confucianness.  Thank you both for your comments.

  • I just wrote this long exhaustive comment and it just got deleted.

    I just wanted to say Joe that I'm excited for your church and what God will do there because in reading your posts I'm again reminded why you're going to make a great pastor.

    Here are a few thoughts to you and to other commentors:
    Being self-absorbed and selfish is being Korean, American, African, Latin....it's being human.

    One thing that I think we as Asian American believers must stop and think about is to not automatically jump on the minority band wagon and think we must do as our other minority brothers and sisters have done and are doing. ("How come we're not doing that?") I think we must fall on our knees in surrender to the lordship of God and ask "God, how can we worship you in this situation?" Yes, He does care about our issues, our freedom...but in the midst of everything we must carry in our hearts the deep truth of God's word.....it's not about us. Are we the church being signposts pointing to Christ or are we pointing to ourselves?

    Reform and change without God's hand is putting a bandaid on a monstrous growing tumor.

    YES, we must take time to grieve, ask the important questions, express our thoughts....then we must surrender...and say "You are God and I am not" and to say Lord, may we not just react but may we respond in surrendering to your Lordship over these situations, over our hearts and minds. How can we be most loving and worshipful to God in this and most loving to others?

    I'm not saying that we do nothing. I'm saying that we actively seek God's face. There is a time to speak out...but there is a time to be still and to know that He is God. We must not live according to the reality of this side of eternity but in the eschatological hope of the kingdom reality revealed in Christ Jesus. TO remember that our ways are always confronted with a NO but Christ is the YES that we've been looking for.

    So where is Christ in this situation? For the victims and their families who are asking about justice, about hope that seems to have been lost with the loss of a loved one? For the students of VT that are now filled with fear and questions about life and death? For Cho's family who are confused, hurt...feeling shame and despair....and for Korean Americans as well as Korean American believers.....and for the greater church.....

    Unless we have pondered on this question first, making Christ the center, we have then and will inevitably be selfish and self-centered.

  • ..no matter how good our intentions...

  • yeah, seriously.
    the whole country is deep mourning
    and many KA are complaining about racism and ethnic image... sad.

    yes they are important issues, but the timing is awful...

  • I think the first 2 commenters completely missed the point.  Koreans here the States are more focused on the fact that this guy's Korean.  Most of them haven't shed a single tear for 32 families. 

    I constantly hear things like, "yeah, BUT... " 

    "I feel bad for his family.  Must be so shameful."

    "Oh, what's gonna happen to us?"  Who cares?!  These families got their lives shattered, and that's all Koreans can think about: image.

    (What about the 32 families?)  Yeah, I'm sad for them, but... NO YOU'RE NOT. 

    Listen, Americans aren't like Koreans.  2002 - In Korea, MILLIONS marched in protest because of US troops' actions that killed 2 girls.  They stabbed a US Colonel, kidnapped US expatriates, and put signs in restaurants saying they don't serve "Yanks." This was recently cleared as a complete accident.  No one talks about it now.  They all shut up. 

    And if something like this happened in Korea where a "foreigner" shot up Koreans, that country would be at war right now.

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